Life is a kind of search

I especially like Dream Theater's kind of ironic lyric from Octavarium part I, Someone Like Him.
I remember when I was a kid, I was so sure that I don't want a lot of things about grown-up people. Things like responsibility, complicated cause-and-effect system, bureaucracy... But, as I grow up myself, I get exposed to these things. With much painful resistance, I learned their values, how these things are useful in social life. And so, now I think my kid self will hate my current self if somehow they could meet and interact.

Quoted from Someone Like Him:

I never wanted to become
Someone like him
...
So many years have passed
...
So suddenly
The only thing
I wanted
To become
To be someone just like him

One thing that I'd like to comment is that people usually see this process of growing up as "losing your innocence." That's correct. However, I believe that innocence is NOT a virtue. What is the difference between innocence and ignorance? The virtue here is not about not knowing evil, but being exposed to evil and being able to recognize and resist it.
True, this makes it difficult for any adult to teach and understand young kids. Somehow, we cannot understand how we used to think. This is a common side effect of learning and knowing. Ask any PhD student ot university professor to explain their research topic. I'm sure you'll see them thinking hard about how to explain a highly specialized stuff to another person who don't even know the basics necessary to understand why this specialized stuff is so difficult to do. In this case, research is "life", the researcher is "an adult", and you are "a young, innocent kid."

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I'm starting to realize that life is a form of constant search. You find a thing, understand its use and deficiencies, and search for another thing to overcome the deficiencies or some other unsatisfied needs.

Quoted from The Answer Lies Within, still by Dream Theater:

Life is short, so learn from your mistakes
And stand behind, the choices that you made
Face each day with both eyes open wide
And try to give, don't keep it all inside

Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by, in doubt,
The answer lies within

You've got the future on your side
You've gonna be fine now
I know whatever you decide
You are gonna shine!!!

I think I am still immature in my own search because I'm just a sucker for the bold line. Sometimes I wonder how other people can learn these things so quickly in their own search.

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New remixes over at OverClocked Remix:

(1) Moon Rhapsody, a first remix by DrumUltimA. It's from the game Cave Story.
http://www.ocremix.org/remix/OCR01524/
Somehow I like the remix even though Im not familiar with the original tune.

(2) Via, by Tepid, TO, and pixietricks, from the game Final Fantasy X.
http://www.ocremix.org/remix/OCR01521/
It's got Tepid and TO, so it's got to be good :)

(3) Knuckleduster by Daniel Baranowsky from Sonic 3.
http://www.ocremix.org/remix/OCR01526/
I was rather skeptical to read that Marble Garden tune from Sonic 3 got lyricized, even if it's by Mr Baranowsky. The fact that Sonic 3 is probably *the* favourite game I had during high school time just thickens my skepticism. But it turned out to be good, so I recommend it :)
Oh, this remix is a part of the remix album Project Chaos: http://s3k.ocremix.org